It's not worth it

No one knows how much  I have tried
to fit in and find my place
I have tried to change myself
but that didn't help
no matter how much  I tried
no one saw me
and now I really can see
how deep those scars are
some of them are still bleeding
and they are all in my heart
I will always carry them with me
No one else can see them
or understand the pain they cause to me
I realised that it's waste of time
to try to change yourself
just to find a place
where people respect you
I feel ashamed of those changes I made
But now I can proudly say
That I am who I meant to be